walrus

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 22:44:22 GMT

this journal is gay. so i made a new one.

colonists

+it!
i need to stop making so many journals!!!11!!!

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 22:18:53 GMT

dude i want to get made.

p.s. as of today, im big pimpin.

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 02:31:17 GMT

i cannot do it. i just cannot do it.
i dont care what everyone else says.

ive never been good at breaking hearts. ive only been good at breaking noses.

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 01:20:01 GMT

i feel so bad right now. so guilty.

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 00:55:03 GMT

hmmmm. im going to be a deer for halloween. &im going to a party tonight. tomorrows homecomming. im not as excited as i should be. i did finally get a dress though. im feeling very apathetic and cold. i hope its just the weather because its getting harder and harder for me to keep surpressing these feelings.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 02:53:57 GMT

i feel so much better. max &i talked. its going to be okay now.

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 18:09:40 GMT

remember when i was pale. when my hair was dark brown. remember when i used to wear three layers of shirts. when i wanted to be different. remember when i used to rely on my friends for everything. when i used to be scared. remember when i didnt want to fall in love. when my heart got broken. remember when id go out on friday nights. when id cry on sundays. remember when i failed math. when i was ignorant. remember when i was a metal head. when i didnt care what anyone thought.
remember when we didnt care. when we didnt have to worry about life.

you do remember dont you?

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 21:32:28 GMT

ive got butterflies in my stomach. im so nervous.

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 03:01:30 GMT

my parents tell me "dont sell yourself short, you have a lot going for you." but what? what do i have going for me? i cant see anything.
i want to go to school in new zealand. really bad. so i should start saving up money now. maybe for once in my life things will go my way.

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 14:39:05 GMT

nicole called me at 630 this morning. she said that mom just hit someone with my van.i hope everyones okay.
car wrecks are a great way to start ones day.

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 03:26:57 GMT

its hot. really hot.
i had a nice hockey chat with my home teacher. im so glad that hockey seasons back. you have no idea. hopefully this week ill get some new scriptures. i also want to get this

hahaha. oh man. i dont care what you think, i love being mormon.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 03:48:45 GMT

jamba juice + le petit prince = ♥

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 22:45:23 GMT

i cant find the words i need to say.

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 01:43:33 GMT

tomorrows my birthday. ill be seventeen. im scared, i dont want to grow up.
theres still max drama. and it hasnt really bothered me, but now it does. take this for example:
my away message: cause you mean the world to me, youre exactly what i need.
max: i would hope that is about me
me: kinda
max: ouch
me: how is that ouch
max: so who is it about?
me: first how is it ouch?
max: im gonan go do hw
me: ohokay
his away message: homework.:'(
me: i love you
me: oh, i get what you were saying
me: yes it is about you
me: i didnt know what you ment
wtf. he should talk to me, not put his away message up. if he wants this to get solved hed talk. hes probably going to break up with me with the grounds that im 'cheating'.

maybe hell love me again since im an indian now.

i can only hope.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 01:18:06 GMT

max thinks im cheating on him. &i want to cry.

i should go to sleep.

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 03:46:23 GMT

One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind how great you are.

post anonymously &as many times you want.
i have a feeling that ill be looking back at this entry a lot this year.
♥

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 03:16:01 GMT

i got my van. its nice. i have a disco ball in it. but it keeps falling down. its okay though. because i always put it back up.

and i have a new hair cut.

p.s. igor &byron have died. :(

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 00:34:29 GMT

my days have consisted of laughing &being with my new friends. blowing bubbles &listening to oldies on the radio. getting ice-cream &feeling truly loved for the first time in my life.

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 00:31:42 GMT

i finally got fish. my brothers found them in a watter bottle in my high schools parking lot.

their names are cecil, igor, &byron. they love me and i love them. i never thought id love a fish.
i also got a new skirt.

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 04:49:41 GMT

im home!
byu was great. as much as i hate utah, i had a great time. but its good to be home.

i ♥ being mormon.

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 21:39:09 GMT

im leaving for byu tomorrow. ill be gone for a week.
bye bye.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 23:41:01 GMT

vegas was gay.
but i got my license on tuesday and my cousin painted my nails all

i also broke my sunglasses. so i need new ones. &i want to go to the long beach aqarium.

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 20:45:23 GMT

i made the field hockey team :). it was so hot during the camp. but i got really tan. i look healthier when i have some pigment in my skin. on august 2nd i take my drivers license test. eeee. nervose. itll be nice to have my license though. really nice. ill be able to drive myself places and not have to depend on my mom all the time. i need to go surfing a bunch before school starts up again, i also want to get some

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 23:48:15 GMT

yeah.
right now i feel like beating someone up.
im not angry or anything i just want someone to say something to set me off. then ill destroy them.
it must be pent up aggression or something. or maybe its just because im repulican.

i bet id win.

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 01:50:35 GMT